How shall I properly introduce my chapbook The Map of Longing now that it has snuck into my blog entries through a poem called to mind be recent experience? It is my second chapbook with Finishing Line Press, published in 2009. It is a collection of poems about loss and longing within the ordinary phases of life. I had the fun of working with a friend who is a photographer to choose the cover picture, which shows a road leading to some unknown place through overhanging trees. The fact that it is a scene from my home state, California, was an incidental plus.
Many of the poems in this collection relate to my mother, including some about the last months of her lifeand clearing outher house. Others refer to my own move from Pennsylvania to New Mexico, which happened the same year as my mother’s death. Is it any wonder the two themes are intertwined?
There are several poems, however, which attempt to capture the feeling of being lost, disoriented, out of touch, as a general human condition, not connected to any specific circumstances. One of these is the title poem, which expresses the mood of distraction and disorientation by the very number of its metaphoric images.
The Map of Longing
The express train
knows where it’s headed.
I zigzag,
a squirrel before cool weather
signals gathering,
no pattern tidy
as trimming for a skirt,
no purpose,
like switchbacks
up a mountain.
My turns random as leafing
through a dictionary,
I skid like a getaway car
within a movie frame,
constricted by the tracks of time,
direction inescapable
as A to Z.
The Map of Longing is available through Amazon. You can get a signed copy from me via ERYBooks.
Oct 24, 2012 @ 10:05:46
I like what you say about this poem, and like the poem itself even better.
Oct 25, 2012 @ 19:33:10
Wow! I really like this, Ellen. I’m dealing with lots of emotions with my mom right now as she beginning hospice care. Your words are full of life and somehow comforting. Just the title says so much. Thanks!
Oct 26, 2012 @ 13:10:51
Sandy, Peggi, Thank you so much for sharing your reactions.
Oct 28, 2012 @ 14:20:38
I’m a fan of book titles, Ellen, and THE MAP OF LONGING is an excellent title.
I really like the title poem, too, using similes and metaphors to precisely capture the moment: My turns “random as leafing through a dictionary.”
The picture of your mother is lovely.